sucked back in

wisdom words

SUCKED BACK IN

i got sucked back in
i didn’t realize it for a while
my heart was first to let me know
and i didn’t want to admit it

the pedigree was almost the same
just a different presentation
the striving, self-doubt, breathlessness-
impatience with my kids
judgment of loved ones
never enoughness

my ego doesn’t want to admit
that i’m sucked back in
all the work i’ve done
to release myself from this place
will feel pointless
if i admit that i’m back here again

or –

i might take a deep breath
i might find compassion
i might acknowledge that life feels hard again
i might slow down a bit
i might ask for help
i might see the learning in this